I AM BUT A GIRL, NOTHING MORE

I am drowning in the darkness in my heart

Lost to the confusion of having to be strong when I feel so weak

So helpless and alone through it all

I need a hand in mine to guide me forward

To show me that through all my pain I will matter still

For now I find myself with tears pouring down my cheeks

I cannot find the strength tonight to find a smile

I do as I always have and wear the mask of contentment

Too many need me to be there for them and I fear I have none at times

People think they know me but they have no idea of the truth

I can smile when the world falls around me 

But tonight as the dust settles, I sink to my knees

I am tired

Tired of having to be something I fear I am not

The walls I have so painstakingly built around me for so long lies in ruins

I do not feel I can build them again without the help of those who give me their love

To stand alone brings me safety but insecurity within my heart

I shall try to be who they wish me to be for it is not who I myself see in the mirror

I am a ghost, a player in a game I do not wish to be in

Yet like a prisoner trapped within their very mind

I know no other way to survive

If you see me and you know the look I wear is not my own

I beg thee, pull me back and save me

I do not wish to be anything more than who I am 

Who I am supposed to be 

I am but a girl, nothing more and I break so easily