HIS CURSE

There he stood alone

A savage, a warrior, a charmer, an adventurer; he was all those

But the only of his kind

He walked about for many centuries alone

Many beautiful women had come and gone, but none did ever stay

They fought for him, went too far for him

Even baved the depths of many hells for him

And at times, he did the same

But in return he has nothing to show for it

Only scars and emptyness

For his loyalty has never been returned

In all his years he has walked this world alone

A saviour rejected time and time again

Still he came through even when not wanted

Yet, not a thanks has he ever heard

He longs to leave the world he has grown to resent

But he cannot leave it behind

For defending ungrateful people seems to be his curse

I AM BUT A GIRL, NOTHING MORE

I am drowning in the darkness in my heart

Lost to the confusion of having to be strong when I feel so weak

So helpless and alone through it all

I need a hand in mine to guide me forward

To show me that through all my pain I will matter still

For now I find myself with tears pouring down my cheeks

I cannot find the strength tonight to find a smile

I do as I always have and wear the mask of contentment

Too many need me to be there for them and I fear I have none at times

People think they know me but they have no idea of the truth

I can smile when the world falls around me 

But tonight as the dust settles, I sink to my knees

I am tired

Tired of having to be something I fear I am not

The walls I have so painstakingly built around me for so long lies in ruins

I do not feel I can build them again without the help of those who give me their love

To stand alone brings me safety but insecurity within my heart

I shall try to be who they wish me to be for it is not who I myself see in the mirror

I am a ghost, a player in a game I do not wish to be in

Yet like a prisoner trapped within their very mind

I know no other way to survive

If you see me and you know the look I wear is not my own

I beg thee, pull me back and save me

I do not wish to be anything more than who I am 

Who I am supposed to be 

I am but a girl, nothing more and I break so easily